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Yesterdays' RAMAZAN DAY 15 Bro, wth, I keep losing pens. This is the 5th one ig. No big deal though. We move. .. Exercise is back..kind of. Let me explain, there was this thing on twitter where the people decide how much pushups you will do based on the interactions like favs, rts, replies etc. My twitter is mostly just me tweeting dumb stuff meaning close to no actual interactions (wish I had a little though, moving on), so I got a sweet cake of 35. .. clocked, half of the month is gone. Totally Rocketed. I hope the good we did was accepted and we get enough time to repent. 15 days still remaining so, strapped. Moving on. .. I did the evaluation of myself you know to be better going forward in the month. I could say things aren't that bad, it could be better though. Regretted some decisions, made some more, reconceived some, ditched some, you know, normal stuff. can't really regret all along, that doesn't help anyone, what we gonna do, stuff happens, only God knows the...

Yesterdays' RAMAZAN DAY 14 Ramazan is the only time where I could easily find time to be with the fam, mostly at sahoor and iftar, but due to the "responsibilities" and stuff, most of iftars are spend outside either at someones' or at the road side on the go but alhamdoulillah so far the balance is pretty good. I intend to keep it this way, let's see. .. Had to go for a janaza today, heart drops every time I hear someone died, in Ramzan but you know everyone has to go, the people who died this month in also kinda blessed, idk.  May Allah shower his blessings and forgive the shortcomings. .. We were having a talk about nostalgia and memories that how it changes and controls the human emotions, how letting it to go is helpful and all. The remembrance of good times, feeling joyful about your past, the relationships, the experiences, all of that makes you smile a bit but you can't ride that horse all the time, time changes and we must too, to evolve, to grow one m...

Yesterdays' RAMAZAN DAY 13 We ended the course with a iftar next day. We hope this little effort of everyone involved turns out to be beneficial in long run. .. I'm noticing, this Ramzan is mostly uneventful personally, maybe because a lot is going on in the head or something. Idk, but this seems not right, days passing by quickly but something feels unfulfilled, does that make sense ? Idk. .. Nevertheless, we must be thankful, we got to experience this beautiful month once again with all our health and happiness. .. I realize, this is a short one, I have plenty to say, but we gonna lid it until Eid. You know, keep the month a little less chaotic for the head. .. Almost half of the month is finished. May Allah accept the good we did and help us get better throughout this month and after.

Yesterday's  RAMAZAN DAY 12 Right off the bat, haven't exercised in a week and I'm not feeling good. Mind and body need 3-4 days of exercise in a week for me to function properly. Feel me ?  .. On the horse first thing this Monday.  .. Btw, Ramzan is going so fast. It's the 12th already. Guess, when you enjoy something, you don't notice how fast it's gonna end. Well, this turned out unnecessary philosophic. Moving on, it is what it is. .. It was the last day of the course and how I received it, it could be better, there's room to improve. It was fine though. Learned some stuff, hope the attendees learned too.  .. Randomly, totally non intentional stuff but I'm watching way too many NYC apartment tours, stumbled upon some on YouTube suggestions and I just can't stop watching them. Is it manifestation ? Idk. .. I'll stop wasting time and start praying, the month's slipping fast. 

First a little explanation if I may. it's been almost 3 months since the last entry. I had some thinking to do so that happened also some personal matters to be taken care of. you understand what I mean. head over to the last one if you need a little back reference Now back to our regular scheduled entry. RAMAZAN DAY 11 I did changed the pens again, we experimenting and seeing what works, it's all in the process. .. btw, a little disclaimer. this is just a fill-up piece, actually your guy here missed a day. .. tbh I was being a little too hard on myself for missing a day, when the nerves settled thought it isn't too bad you know with the ramadan schedule and all. Also, there isn't much to do anyways in day times, I mean no routine and all, a day or two might get missed in due, you understand what I mean. .. The course took a slight dip in audience on the 2nd day. These things happens with these types of programs. The attendance is hardly consistent. It's alright. T...

Yesterdays' RAMAZAN DAY 10      1st ashra is over and it's going fast, boy this ramazan is going fast.   .. Tbh this years ramazan is going okay, could be better though. I'm kinda busy with stuff maybe that's the reason, idk. .. heard the news about corona hitting hard in India. This thing is getting out of control, vaccines rolling is a good news though. May Allah keep us all safe and sane. .. we arranged a 3 days fehm e deen course for students. Today was the first day, it went just fine. Learned a few mistakes we did along the way, it could get better. 2 days are remaining and we'll try to do it better and make it more beneficial. .. You know, as you can realize, this is all over the place right now. I wasn't really in the mood of picking the pen today. Feeling a bit low today for some reason. I have so much to say but there's literally zero energy. .. I'll just rest myself for now, will go again tomorrow.

Yesterdays' RAMAZAN DAY 9      I switched pens this time, why is that relevant ? I don't know. .. The other day some one mentioned on twitter that ramazan isn't about the vibes and moods, it's about ibadah. I disagree, it's all about the vibes, vibes doesn't mean something bad. The month comes with it's traditions and rituals and vibes and moods comes with them, which tbh are missing this year as some of those were missing last year. .. There used to be road side stalls of free iftar in every corner of the street which are few to none this year, they possess a different vibe, which was missing, hence the vibes are missing. I hope I've made the point. .. I had to send a text to some one and I'm not joking it took me so long to figure out how to write what I'm supposed to write. Texting isn't for me I guess. Give me calls, no issues. Texts ? I'll pass. .. Came home to some bad news. Bomb went off in Quetta killing a few people. There was th...